She's at it again!

Today is day 4 of my new journey to serendipity. I have worked out consistently for the past 12 weeks. I have lost 10 pounds and I am wearing size 6 clothing. There are so many mornings where I have a mental war and try to justify staying in bed. I say to myself, "I can miss one day, it won't change anything." Then after 10 minutes I get up put my running shoes on and go. It's that simple. I don't want to let myself down. I will write another day about the becoming "super" challenge. This was the motivation to finally start exercising again. I realize that I can use this model in every other aspect of my life. If I set realistic goals and expectations for myself I can accomplish anything I put my mind to do. It's that simple. What holding me back? Here's to keeping up with this blog and being accountable everyday. That is my new challenge. I am going to write on this blog everyday and report what I did that day. The good, the bad and the ugly. Life is too short to not enjoy it. I am started the day out exercising. I always feel better after a good workout. I then made Swedish Pancakes with homemade buttermilk syrup for the kids. I had Taylor take to get the whip cream from the fridge. It ended up being cream cheese frosting and they loved it! I let them also have chocolate milk to go with the pancakes. Talk about sugar overkill! Oh well, what can you do? After breakfast I had to go lay down and rest. I still have been really tired everyday. I am trying to fight through the fatigue but each day I still have to lay down. I may need to go to the doctor and find out what is making me so tired. Anyway,We then picked up the house and had lunch. It was fun to talk around the table and laugh about silly nonsense. Abby kept giving me the cutest smiles through lunch. I couldn't help but think how awesome it is that I get to stay home with my kids. I gave the 3 youngest a bubble bath. Abby kept saying, "bubbles" and then would scoop up the bubbles in her hand and laugh. It was so cute. She is starting to say quite a few words. I let the kids have free time while ran to the grocery store. We ate dinner and then headed to the park. It was a great day and each day is getting better.

Today was another successful day. This week I am trying to take one day at a time. I tend to focus on so many task at once that I don't accomplish any of them at all. Today I exercised, cleaned the house and mopped. The kids helped out with their chores and we were able to go swimming at a friends house. We swam for about 2 hours and then headed back home. I made a simple dinner to finish off left overs. We watched "Sesame Spoof" a throwback from my childhood. I "rested my eyes" for awhile. We read from the scriptures and another chapter out of "Double Fudge". Today was art day and to do not disappoint the kids we ended up doing art at 9 p.m.! I am trying to be present. I don't want to miss out on my children's childhood. It goes way to fast to be too busy and feel rushed all of the time. My lesson for today is; talk positive to myself, have a more gentle tone and let little irritants go. Things are looking brighter!

Today was a good day!

Today was a great day! I started my day off with a great workout. I made the kids breakfast, took a much needed shower and then got the house clean. The kids worked together and we got the job done. We ate lunch at the park and then decided it was too hot to stay any longer. We then went home and the kids had there screen time. I took full advantage of Abby napping and took a nap myself. I got up after 40 minutes and finally tackled the big pile of papers in my office. I had a full bag of garbage when I was through. I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel with the office area. After I finished that project the kids and I had cooking class. A neighbor had brought over a box of peaches for us to eat. We made peach cobbler and pie. They both were really good. The kids did a fantastic job working together. We had a few tears along the way but mainly from Ashlin who is almost 4. She didn't think she was helping enough. I then made one of our family favorites, Talapia with orzo and steamed veggies. We rounded off the meal with our peach cobbler with a scoop of vanilla ice cream. I read to Abby and played a few rounds of "Ring around the Rosy". We then read from the scriptures and a chapter from the book, "Double Fudge". I got the kitchen cleaned up from our cooking adventure and here I am finishing my day up writing in my journal. I also have to mention that even my hair cooperated today! Today I learned that I am smart, I am capable and I am me.

And yet the Saga continues....

Wow! It has almost been a year since I last posted on this page. It was interesting to go back and read the last few posts I wrote. I am still in the same boat. I am still treading the same water. I just experienced almost the exact same melt down and I had Chris give me a blessing on Saturday night. I felt like the adversary was truly in my mind. I again felt like I was losing my mind. I have been experiencing restless nights, wanting to sleep more and yearning to be someone else. When will I see that I have an amazing life? When will I realize that my life is rich and blessed? I am going to keep fighting this battle until I find peace in my heart. I am going to start writing about the wonderful life I have the positive changes I am making. I am going to look in the mirror one day and love the person I see in it. I am daughter of God with divine qualities. I am unique. I am smart. I did not get a formal education. I do not have a diploma that says I finished college. I have 14 years of education behind me now. I have learned how to cook, clean, organize, read, write, heal, love and many other skills that have been useful to me as a mother. I chose to be a mother instead of getting a degree. To the world that is not noble choice and to some of my peers as well. It is the path I chose and I need to hold my head high. I have much to still work on as a mother. I am constantly learning the art of patience and unconditional love. I love my children and I am going to give them the best life possible. Here is to another day and another start of this blog!

Here is a picture of all of my babies!