Here I go again.....

Here I go again in trying to start up this blog. I need a place to go and sort my thoughts and inner desires. I have so many wonderful insights that come to me through Priesthood blessings, personal revelation, friends and family. I want a place where I can record the events and moments that help me grow and stretch. I love life and I have had so many wonderful experiences and yet I continue to struggle with feelings of self doubt, loneliness and pain. How is it that I am surrounded by 7 children and a wonderful husband and still feel lonely? This is a good question. I want to figure this out. Why do I continue to isolate myself from people? Why do I feel that it is weakness to express what I really feel? This is going to be a journey of self discovery. I want to know what makes me really happy. I want to know what I am supposed to learn on this journey called life. Who am I and what has the Lord sent me down here to accomplish for him? These are questions I think we all seek to know and understand. I want to figure out why there are days when I feel like I can conquer the world and others where I feel like I am on the verge of losing my mind. I know that we are here to overcome our weaknesses. I also know that we have been given gifts to help us on our journey. I want to discover what those gifts are. This journal will be random for sure. I am excited to see where it takes me......