It's not about me!

So I had my 7th child in March. I am crazy about this new little addition to our family. She is so darn cute. The only problem I have is that I have not gotten a good night sleep for over 5 months now. She is up still 2 or 3 times in the night. Last night she was up almost every hour. Abby doesn't just cry herself back to sleep. She just starts screaming at the top of her lungs as if she were starving or about to die. I have been so tired and I am starting to forget to do simple things that I need to get done. I am trying my hardest to not make this difficult on the rest of the family. I have tried to be very patient when all I want to do is scream. A couple nights ago in the middle of the night I had the thought come into my mind "it's not about you!" This phrase caught me off guard but made think differently about the situation. I have always wanted to be a mom. I knew what I was getting into. I knew there would be nights when I wouldn't get a good nights sleep. I knew there would be days when I didn't get anything done that I wanted to. Somewhere along the way with all my other obligations I forgot this. I was able to hold Abby and look down at her and realize she is relying on me to take care of her every need. So I have been trying to make the most out of my days right now. I have gone back to planning and preparing delicious healthy meals for the kids I (even though I have no energy)and I have been trying to keep the house clean and not yell when I don't see the kids helping out. I want to give all of my kids a good life. I don't want them to remember a grumpy tired mom. So I know that this too shall pass. I will not always have a baby keeping me up all night. I just need to get some sleep when I can and not try to fill my days up with a lengthy to do list. I hope that I can remember "it's not about me" right now and it never will be. It's about the lives I touch. The love I give and the patience I learn to have for myself and those around me.